Hey guys, my partner & I are in the process of moving home right now but I willbe focusing on this blog much more soon including more personal posts about my life and my continuing weight loss journey. My ask box is open if you guys want to send me ideas of what you would like to see on this blog, ask me any questions or just tell me how your day is going
and now back to packing…
So you guys might not be aware but I am currently in the first year of an advanced diploma of Graphic Design & Advertising.
My boyfriend works for a law firm in the city and one of his co-workers saw him printing some of my work off and asked if I would like to do some design work for them. HECK YES I DO. Best of all I actually get paid!
HW - 112kg/247lbs
LW - 85kg/187lbs
CW - 88kg/194lbs
GW - 78kg/172lbs by late september
UGW - ??
I am officially back! I know I have pretty much been avoiding this blog like a plague for the last few months. Things have been really up in the air about my whole “weightloss journey” and yes, I’ve put on 3kgs but I am more upset about my lack of focus and motivation to continue on when I have come so far.
After my grandmother passed away & my parents visited me here in Melbourne, I flew back home for a week to attend her funeral. It was the first time my family became aware that I had lost weight and I got mostly great compliments. It was a weird experience for me because even though it is evident in pictures that I have lost a substantial amount of weight, I was convinced that no-one would actually notice in real life. When someone would compliment me I would become really awkward and mumble thankyou. Ofcourse there were a few offhand comments such as “Wow, you look great! I can’t wait when you have lost more” or “Well don’t give up just yet” that got me a bit upset. I suppose that comes with the territory, though since then I just haven’t been able to jump back on the proverbial weightloss horse.
Maybe it was because I wanted to say Fuck You! to those comments and I was perfectly content with my current body and proud of how far I have come.
Maybe it was because I started playing World Of Warcraft again.
Maybe it was because I got drowned in my schoolwork.
Or because of all the impromptu visitors and dinners.
Or because of my fondness for mint slice biscuits.
Whatever the reason I am done with making excuses. I HAVE come SO far and it would be such a shame to give up now. It is already July and I always said I wanted to reach my goal one year from when I started (16th of Jan 2011). Back then I would have never believed that I could lose 60 pounds in only 4 or 5 months or that I would be exercising 3 or 4 times a day. I still have a lot to learn, goals to reach and weight to lose but for the first time in months I am actually excited about it.
Everything is a bit weird right now. My great grandmother (nonna) is in hopsital back home and doesn’t have long. I come from a large, italian family and everyone is devastated. I am on the other side of the country and feeling pretty miserable. My mum, dad, brother and cousin were supposed to be visiting this Thursday. It will be the first time I will have seen them since early Jan (and 60 pounds lighter). But with everything going on I’m worried that they won’t end up coming. I completely understand if they don’t obviously.
Last night I had the first real “break” from my diet. I got myself some of my favorite olives stuffed with feta, a microwave pasta dinner and a chocolate dessert thinking it would make my feel better. It didn’t. It wasn’t because I felt guilty for “binging” or that I was worried I would put weight on, it just didn’t taste as good as I remembered. I suppose that is a good thing.
Anyway, just feeling pretty down right now and don’t know how much I will be online this week, especially if my family do end up visiting. For now, I am going to lie in bed, watch 16 and Pregnant and eat baked sweet potato with goat cheese. xo
buddingbody replied to your post: My boyfriends name is Josh and his dads name is John
Oh no! Was it recoverable?
Yes, thankfully it wasn’t too bad. It was about my GW and what not, not really the kind of thing you necessarily want to discuss with your in-laws hahaha.
1year2transform replied to your post: My boyfriends name is Josh and his dads name is John
hahaha!!! Omgosh I do it all the time and it is horrible :( I always triple check before I send a text
And you know what the thing is? When I added his number I paused because I thought that this might happen but then decided I couldn’t possibly be that stupid. Woops! Hahaha.
Guess who just sent an embarrassing text to the wrong person?!