Tumblr (3.0; @emilychanges)http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mekg9j1KGo1rmcutgo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/43086345210http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/43086345210Thu, 14 Feb 2013 21:11:30 +1100<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mekg9j1KGo1rmcutgo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/43086344461http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/43086344461Thu, 14 Feb 2013 21:11:27 +1100<p>It&#8217;s 2am in the morning and maybe 6 months since I last posted&#8230; I discovered a pm recently that I recieved on reddit referring to my before and after picture that got a few notes on here. The person said that I was inspiring and asked how I was doing now&#8230;I couldnt help but dwell on the thought of where I would have been if I had kept it up. I would have well and truly been at my goal weight or atleast close to it&#8230; I did so well for 6 months and then I just threw it away&#8230; And here I am&#8230; I relay the reasons (I.e excuses) in my head over and over. I think it went downhill when my Nonna died. Up until then I hadn&#8217;t had any deaths in my immediate family and it hit me really hard. It would have been her 93rd birthday yesterday. From then came the traveling home and family visiting us in Melbourne, where naturally you eat out most nights. Then came moving and the stresses that come with that. And then my overwhelming school load. And so on and so forth. <br/> As I really think about it there are other reasons I sabotaged myself. Initially when I decided to shape up and lose weight I wasnt going to tell any relatives about it. Eventually I let my parents in and then Josh&#8217;s parents&#8230; Soon everyone knew. I admit I enjoyed the attention but it made feel pressured to do even more and I choked. I never wanted my<br/> Weight loss to be about anyone but myself. <br/> At my &#8220;best&#8221; I was eating well, about 1200 calories a day, and exercising about 4 times a day if I could - 2 walks, 30 min shred and yoga. 15 year old tendencies began to surface with disordered eating habits and extreme anxiety over being unable to track calories exactly when eating out. It scared me&#8230; I didn&#8217;t want to be in that supremely unhappy place I was back then eating one meal and day and thinking I was obese at 55kg.</p> <p>And here I am. I&#8217;m too scared to weigh myself but I know I&#8217;ve put on about 10-15kg. I feel like a failure, like all the hard work I put in over 6 months was for nothing. I know that all I can do is move forward, learn from my mistakes and fall back into a routine that works for me. The only person in my way is me&#8230; Here we go again!</p>http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/43086198159http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/43086198159Thu, 14 Feb 2013 21:08:15 +1100<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_ma3xv0ea1R1qz4d4bo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/31330425866http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/31330425866Tue, 11 Sep 2012 21:16:07 +1000<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_ma42clA7aJ1rnsy24o1_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_ma42clA7aJ1rnsy24o2_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_ma42clA7aJ1rnsy24o3_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_ma42clA7aJ1rnsy24o4_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_ma42clA7aJ1rnsy24o5_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_ma42clA7aJ1rnsy24o6_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/><p>Spent the weekend in the city with my boyfriend’s parents! We showed them the new house we are moving into this friday - isn’t it adorable?! It’s an refurbished house with an old shop front - so excited! We did a bit of exploring and had some great food… Have I ever mentioned my love affair with bruschetta? Om Nom Nom! Saturday night we went out to an AFL game - not really my cup of tea but I did put a bet on and ended up winning 50$! Oh and how about these cute Ralph Lauren esque slippers I scored for 5 bucks?!<br/><br/>Hope you all have a fantastic weekend! xo<br/> </p>http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/31245167414http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/31245167414Mon, 10 Sep 2012 11:54:00 +1000personal<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m98j34oXng1qf76opo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/31024533079http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/31024533079Fri, 07 Sep 2012 10:09:31 +1000<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m9rg9xfjKF1rs5gpfo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/31014993705http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/31014993705Fri, 07 Sep 2012 07:43:58 +1000<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m3b8a6AmSQ1qdugcso1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/30987989478http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/30987989478Thu, 06 Sep 2012 19:39:10 +1000crystal renn<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m9w4cxRfbX1rfud5fo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/30984932118http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/30984932118Thu, 06 Sep 2012 16:58:13 +1000<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m9sgj6ELPz1rc7pyao1_500.png"/><br/><br/>http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/30973178146http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/30973178146Thu, 06 Sep 2012 12:24:37 +1000<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m9r3u4H46w1rp02wmo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/30972475360http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/30972475360Thu, 06 Sep 2012 12:14:25 +1000<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m8fzl6WiEP1r9yjsfo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/30968086687http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/30968086687Thu, 06 Sep 2012 11:14:28 +1000<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m9pmgcoGI81qenaxbo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/30965962442http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/30965962442Thu, 06 Sep 2012 10:46:04 +1000<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m9jt6p1tas1rcvb13o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/30963934084http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/30963934084Thu, 06 Sep 2012 10:18:33 +1000<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lrslmy5l4o1qg3lzao1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/30963431126http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/30963431126Thu, 06 Sep 2012 10:11:22 +1000<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m9qssdxLEl1rpglsqo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/30963399521http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/30963399521Thu, 06 Sep 2012 10:10:55 +1000<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m76ixvOYrv1rqy7q3o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/30963349404http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/30963349404Thu, 06 Sep 2012 10:10:13 +1000<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m9mwoaKNgS1qbf8fao1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/30963295992http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/30963295992Thu, 06 Sep 2012 10:09:27 +1000healthy foods<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m9h82i277Z1rwl4vvo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/30963282606http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/30963282606Thu, 06 Sep 2012 10:09:15 +1000<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m30357nrcb1ru4tgjo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/30959203428http://emilychanges.tumblr.com/post/30959203428Thu, 06 Sep 2012 09:11:03 +1000